There are moments when they seem to have disappeared... but they are still there, like a background program always running...
Without knowing it, we behave so as to keep them hidden in the background, contained. We stick to reassuring routines, which don't cost much energy....
We need the energy to keep them under control. This routines can take many forms, sometimes they are called addictions, and sometimes they are just "comfort zones"
Anxieties. Feelings of feeling horrible, feelings of having to but having not to, feelings of waste, of fear, of damnation.
There are remedies. Long term remedies, Things to practice when we can, when we think of it, when suddenly we have no choice. Making a stop. No thinking, no distraction. No action. Just feeling. Being where we are, not where we strive. Slowing down, breathing, just being where we are. That's meditation. And maybe, maybe, calling for help and trusting we are heard.
